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2006-05-13T02:29:00.000+08:00

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p0Ly LifE..

2006-04-25T11:24:00.000+08:00

i tell eu.. damn siian lah p0ly life.. s0mem0re i d0n have dear with me.. any life without her is pure siian.. i s0 miss her l0.. n0t 0nly her but ger and qi.. m0i l0vely sistas.. haha.. siian lah.. n0w at the stupid atrium.. nv went f0r eltech at 10 am.. n0w break l0.. siian w0r.. haii.. when can i see m0i dear.. w0 zhen me xiang ta.. bu t0ng ta y0u mei y0u xiang w0.. haha.. dear.. mye c0min le.. ya0 hao hao zuo w0.. sudy well.. if anything me here f0r eu.. nv leave ur side de.. ok??

siian ltr end at 5.. wah lau buay tahan leii.. i feel s0 b0red.. p0ly life is n0 s0 interesting as i th0ught.. hee.. see h0w l0.. h0pe it gets better.. m0i dear next 2 yrs then c0me p0ly.. 0mg by then i 3rd yr lia0, if i make it thr0ugh.. haha.. n0 sweat.. i wanna make it t0 university.. hao xiang w0 de dear..

all those wh0 are in p0ly, h0pe eu all n0t suffering like me.. f0r th0se in sec0ndary sch0ol, study hard c0s ur c0urse ch0ice determines ur future.. take care all.. =]

s0 siiaN

2006-03-27T11:32:00.000+08:00

finally updating my bl0g after s0me time.. but nth much t0 update ab0ut l0.. ytd went t0 aliyah bubdae party.. she w0re a cute pink dress.. haha.. i miss her alot c0s i have st0pped babysitting her.. her mum has resigned and n0w i am all al0ne in my hse in the m0rning.. wah s0 siian.. i will miss the time when she crawl up onto my bed and slept beside me.. i will miss the time when she cry t0 get my attention.. i will miss her and everything ab0ut her.. ytd she celebrated her 1st birthday.. i b0ught her some clothes and a pair 0f sh0es.. i w0nder when i will get t0 see her wear the things i b0ught f0r her.. hmm..

p0ly g0ing t0 start 0n 24th april.. i w0nder h0w am i g0nna g0 thr0ugh p0ly life.. w0nder wether my appeal is sucessful.. i d0n n0e.. i just h0pe my timetable w0nt be s0 packed.. i wan meet up with dear.. i wan t0 fetch her fr0m sch0ol.. i h0pe i can.. i also n0t ask everyday can fetch her but twice a week , excluding sat and sun, is 0kay f0r me.. g0nna miss al0t 0f ppl when p0ly term starts.. shit.. i d0n wish t0 g0 t0 p0ly.. i want stay in BLSS.. the friends the memories.. s0 w0nderful.. But life has t0 g0 0n.. haii..

i update until here bah.. d0n n0e when will update again.. s0rry f0r the inc0nvinience.. haha.. takecare all.. dear, w0 ai ni..

0f all the things i could d0.. i made eu worry.. i regret..

2006-03-09T16:29:00.000+08:00

dear.. i am really sorry.. i n0e eu are angry although eu say nvm.. if 0nly i c0uld n0t make eu w0rry.. den things w0uldnt be this way.. all i can say n0w is i am s0rry.. dear.. i am s0rry.. i made a f00lish mistake.. i want t0 make it up t0 eu..

dEaR.. i l0ve uU witH aLL m0i hEaRt..

2006-03-05T20:08:00.000+08:00

yay.. g0t internet c0nnection le.. hee.. n0w i wan bl0g ab0ut ytd.. it was great.. very fun.. i went 0ut with dear l0.. what c0uld be m0re perfect?? a day 0ut with m0i preci0us dear.. hee.. we went 0ut after her c0 secti0nal.. then ate with ch0ng hwee, james, shuinan.. haha.. after that went t0 bugis.. went there t0 sh0p lah, duh.. hee.. we went around lo0king f0r pants f0r 0urselveS.. then she saw a pants at bugis village.. then tried it 0n.. then after that i paid it f0r her l0.. haha.. quite nice the pants.. checkered pants.. but i don noe how it will lo0k 0n dear.. c0s when she tried it 0n she nv sh0wed me h0w it l0oked.. 0mg.. s0 n0w i kept w0ndering h0w it will l0ok like.. but n0 matter what m0i dear is always beautiful in my eyes.. hee..

then we went around searching f0r a pair 0f pants f0r me.. but c0uldnt find 0ne.. s0 i asked geraldine where else g0t nice pants.. she said queensway.. 0mg still must take mrt and bus and we have not much time left.. c0s m0i dear have t0 get h0me by 6.. s0 we t0ok taxi l0.. when reached there we went int0 the sh0p named SENSE.. the pants n0t bad.. then the guy rec0mmended me a nice pair 0f pants.. i tried it 0n.. the guy asked me buy LARGE size.. then he say blah blah blah.. i blur blur say ok l0.. dear paid f0r m0i pants.. then b0ught a purple shirt from the same sh0p.. actually i saw a very nice shirt.. but the size available extra large.. i nearly cried sia.. n0 have m0i size.. s0b.. damn nice the shirt.. so nice!!! ARGH!! then t0ok cab went t0 jp.. otw t0ok some pics together.. but i will 0nly publish 0ne.. hee.. after tt i sent her h0me.. i l0ve her s0 much..

then i met ger.. we went to kelyn blk.. sat there slacked.. ate ice cream.. 0uhya still g0t hui qii.. tt freak.. so hyper.. hui qii passed her blss uniform to kelyn.. then me qii and ger went t0 jp.. me and ger b0ught levis sh0e.. she b0ught l0w cut and me b0ught high cut.. same c0lour.. haha.. so we g0 0ut wear l0.. together same same.. of c0urse lah we br0 and sis mah.. haha.. ok i st0p here bah.. bl0g again s0on..

My decision..

2006-02-24T08:44:00.000+08:00

just came back from work.. rmbed my internet connection will end at 27 feb.. cos is free for 2 months mah.. now update then ltr go sleep.. at work i couldnt concentrate.. i was thinking about dear.. she said that she not used to not msging me at night.. cos i working mah.. then she say very sian.. i thought over it.. and i decided i cant let her and myself suffer any longer.. i am`gonna stop working.. 28 feb will be my last day.. but not confirm.. have to tell supervisor then she will decide wether we can stop or not.. i hope can.. cos work hurts me and my dear emotionally.. i miss her and she miss me.. i am gonna stop working to fill up the emptiness in her heart eversince i started working.. i miss dear so much.. 6.15am, tears rolled down my cheeks.. cos everyday 6.15am at work i would stop a while and pray in my heart that my dear would be safe.. cos that time she would be getting ready to go school.. i prayed and tears moisten my cheeks.. i noe that my tears and the pain from working are for a good cause.. cos is for my little dear, koh shi hui..

2006-02-21T09:31:00.000+08:00

wah.. ytd went to work.. today morning came back.. work was ok.. not that tiring but the job very boring wor.. to0 siian le.. i kept thinking of shi hui wor.. kept wondering wether she has slept or not.. cant contact her.. no hp leii.. sob sob.. haha.. i work that time miss her so much.. and i noe that she feels the same way to0.. rite?? hee.. the work is abt motorola handphones.. bored lo.. then when got home i realised my hse keys left at home.. omg.. no one at home.. i waited for mum until 9.10.. like doing overtime sia.. haha..

don say abt work le.. i miss her.. oh my god.. what am i gonna do?? cant msg with her.. cant call.. haii.. i must persevere.. i work for her.. i must sacrifice for more better times ahead.. hee.. chey.. no lah.. money is not the key to happiness in relationships.. its the love that the couple share together.. like the song goes, "all the love i ever had, will never equal all the love we share together"

dear.. i miss eu so much.. how i wish to see eu right now.. i love euu..

2006-02-14T20:59:00.000+08:00

study so hard for what??!!! somebody tell me?! i get g00d results g0t make y0u pr0ud not?! nabeii lah!! i give y0u g0od 0 level results.. can shut up mah?! i know what i am d0ing.. still ask me go this course and that.. i study lei cheebye n0t euu!! mai kao pei lah.. i buay tahan this family liao lah.. fuck life..

argh.. tmr results are gonna be 0ut..

2006-02-09T13:07:00.000+08:00

0mg.. h0w are m0i results?? haii.. cant keeping worrying anymore.. n0 matter what the results i will still be studying.. no matter what i will further m0i studies.. haha.. even if it means studying in ite.. its alright.. just hope go ite can get into higher nitec then will be much easier and faster.. but if can wan go poly bah.. better mah.. but i hope if go polytechnic i can go that type science course which ish, come to think of it, VERY HARD.. don think le lah.. tmr i update tell euu all m0i results..

n0w at home.. aliyah sleeping so i use com l0.. she ytd pluck out the spacebar.. now okiie le.. haii.. so bored l0 at h0me.. 2nd month anniversary on sat.. don noe can go 0ut with dear n0t.. haii.. h0pe s0 bah.. if n0t i sure cry sia.. s0 l0ng nv g0 0ut with dear liao.. =[ st0p until here bah.. aliyah gonna wake up anytime now.. haha.. will update tmr.. haha.. takecare all of euu.. =]

..b0riNg..

2006-02-04T03:14:00.000+08:00

n0w 4tH feb le.. aiy0o.. cant sleep n0w.. s0 update abit l0.. 4th feb leii.. w0nder when 0level results will be released.. i n0t scared fail 0r what but m0re scared on what t0 d0 after getting the results.. w0uld i still be studying?? 0mg.. i so nerv0us.. hmm.. wah now damn b0red.. dear sleeping now.. ltr she g0t sectional at sch0ol.. i maybe ltr g0 cut hair.. maybe meet dear den she pai me cut hair at the usual summer 18.. l0oking f0r and unique hairstyle.. well thats what i always say b4 cutting.. but end up still same l0ok and hairstyle.. h0pe ltr can meet dear.. n0w i tired le.. g0 0ink oink.. cya..

i n0t stUpid t0o

2006-02-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

yay.. g0t s0mething exciting to p0st ab0ut.. haha.. 3rd day 0f chinese new year.. i went 0ut with dear.. hee.. miss her s0 much.. c0uldnt see her f0r s0me time liao.. finally w0r.. i s0 relieved that she ish fine.. when dear n0t with me i will w0rry de.. scared she fall sick 0r get injured l0.. hmm. s0 glad she ish fine.. hee..

0ur day didnt start well w0r.. when i met her, she w0re jeans l0.. den i guess i abit disapp0inted bah c0s when i called her, she said she w0uld change t0 skirt.. when i heard that i was very excited c0s l0ng time nv g0 with her wearing skirt.. i don n0e why but i kinda n0t used t0 her wear jeans when g0ing 0ut with me.. guess n0t feminine bah.. i prefer dear wear skirt when we g0 0ut t0 date.. hee.. well it d0esnt st0p there.. the queue at g0lden village damN l0ng.. all want watch the i n0t stupid t0o.. wah lau.. my m0od m0re w0rst sia.. i nv talk t0 her at all.. nv smiled.. haii.. thats me and i am trying t0 change f0r 0ur future.. s0rry dear..

then we made 0ur way t0 mrt station.. we just b0ard the mrt without any destination.. i lazy think where other cinemas are l0cated.. instead, i did s0me s0ul searching.. i realised that my behavior was hurting my l0vely dear.. "0mg what have i d0ne," i th0ught.. i smiled at her.. she smiled back and that h0w w0nderful moments started.. we chatted and i apologised.. she give in al0t t0 me sia.. i must keep reminding myself, i have t0 st0p hurting m0i dear.. then we reached jur0ng east, suddenly i th0ught 0f a place.. l0t 1.. haha c0s m0i dear nv g0 there b4 w0r.. haha.. s0 bring her there l0.. when reached there i think she suprised bah that i brought her there.. hee.. then we went t0 buy tickets.. at least better queue and still g0t ticket left.. when we ch0se the seating, just nice g0t tw0 seats f0r us, third r0w from the fr0nt and the side.. yay.. can sit with m0i dear..

lets talk ab0ut the sh0w.. very nice.. sure laugh.. sure cry.. dear cried.. i also cried.. f0r me the scenes were m0re personal t0 me.. happened t0 me and still happening.. when the parents only see ur mistakes and wrongd0ings.. they never see 0r praise ur talents 0r achievement.. they 0nly scold euu.. when i g0t eligible for the millenia institute f0r three m0nths, n0ne 0f my parents praised me.. they never said 0r did anything t0 sh0w that they are proud 0f their s0n, ME!! haii.. d0n wish t0 talk ab0ut this issue which 0nly make tears c0me r0lling down my cheeks.. haii..

well my life are alike t0 the lives 0f the b0ys in the m0vie.. they get scolding f0r everything, SAME.. n0 praises f0r anything, SAME..they j0in street gangs f0r sense 0f bel0nging, SAME.. their parents realised what they did was wr0ng, N0t SAME.. i d0n n0e lah. i s0metimes just wanna run away fr0m h0me but i d0nt think that w0uld make them realise..

haii.. d0n say le.. the day was great c0s i watched m0vie with dear.. me sent her h0me l0 then went h0me t0 change and went t0 night safari.. i tell euu something, B0RInG!! super duper bored sia.. d0n say le.. if g0t m0i dear then n0t b0ring le c0s can ENTERTAIN her.. muahaha.. will bl0g again s00n.. haha.. cya guys ar0und.. bubyes..

i l0ve the m0ments we share and it will always remain as f0nd memories deep in my heart and s0ul.. i l0ve y0u dear.. =]

..wHat tHe hEll..

2006-01-15T22:06:00.001+08:00

haii.. finally i g0t m0i fingers typing.. damn tired lah.. i must babysit aliyah... aiy0o.. den g0t a j0b le.. went interview with ch0ng hwee 0n the 13th.. wah s0 l0ng after the 0 leveLs, now den g0tj0b.. guess i t0o lazy t0 w0rk bah.. haha.. n0w must w0rk c0z m0i p0cket been empty f0r s0 l0ng.. 0mg.. tmr will be g0ing for j0b training.. hee.. at 2pm.. the c0mpany place near bugis.. wah damn g0od.. after get pay i can g0 sh0pping w0r and buy the barc0de slippers i have dreamt f0r quite s0me time.. haha.. haii.. just h0pe i w0uld w0rk hard.. nv mind g0t ch0ng hwee w0rk with me.. haha.. t0gether w0rk hard.. den t0gether spend the pay at bugis.. haha.. i also want buy m0i dear things w0r.. c0s she at sch0ol then i w0rk s0 we will hardly meet den buy her things can remind 0f me mah.. haha..

st0p at here.. paiseh w0r cos not p0sting much.. haha.. takecare all especially m0i dear.. miss euu l0ts.. l0ve ya aLL.. takecare.. cya all.. =]

..wHat tHe hEll..

2006-01-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

..deaR, its 0ur first m0nth lE..

2006-01-11T01:41:00.000+08:00

this is t0 my dear, k0h shi hui..
[t0day iSh 0ur first m0nth since deC 11.. the day we g0t t0gether..i feel that time is sl0w.. 0nly 0ne m0nth leii.. if it weren't f0r my 0levels last year, we w0uld be having our ninth or tenth month t0gether.. but its okiie.. cos the time that we spent during that 9-10 m0nths was great.. we g0t t0 know each other much closer.. i knew ur strengths.. ur weaknesses.. y0u, on the other hand, knew mine.. y0u even experienced my m0ody self.. it was w0rth it,right?? we owe t0 that 9-10 months that we have such a close relationship.. n0w is only the first m0nth.. s0on it will be years.. all that we can d0 is h0ld 0n.. time will pass just lyk that.. our love is here to stay.. we will live our dreams t0 be t0gether.. hold on..

dear.. i also wan say s0rrie f0r all my wrongdoings.. all i have done t0 hurt euu.. i w0uld like t0 seek ur f0rgiveness 0n 0ur first m0nth.. i assure y0u that in the next few m0nths and next few years, i w0nt be seeking ur f0rgiveness again cos i promise i will change f0r the sake 0f this relationship.. i pr0mise and all th0se wh0 read my p0st are my witnesses..

thanks f0r all the l0ve c0s all the l0ve i ever had will never equal all the l0ve we share t0gether.. i kn0w there are m0re l0ving m0ments t0 c0me.. i l0ve y0u..]

argh.. s0 tired n0w.. hven bl0g f0r quite s0metime c0s i very tired and nothing much happen in the past few days.. haha.. still aiting for seng kiat to call me regarding the factory j0b.. haii.. abt a week liao.. haii.. when can i get cold hard cash 0n m0i hand?? haha.. desperate..

aiy0o.. n0thing much happen s0 p0st abit 0nly.. haha.. euu guys takecare w0r.. f0r th0se in scho0l, take care.. d0n slack in sch0ol s0 much c0s it will c0st y0u.. haii.. erm.. take care all.. l0ve y0u all.. =]

s0 tiRed..

2006-01-08T13:07:00.000+08:00

let me sTart 0N ytD's peRf0rmncE at bLsS.. whAt tHe hEll.. fUn lah c0z m0i deAr aLS0 pErf0rM bUt dAmN tirEd!! bUt cAn lAh. wh0lE c0 s0 tirEd bUt b0 piAn l0.. tHEn aftEr c0 atE witH jAmes sHuinAn mEliSsA anD xiaNg liN aNd m0i deAr.. atE kFc.. tHen aftER tHAt wEnt h0me.. wE sAt a wHiLe lAh.. dEn tAlK aNd bUlly eAcH 0tHEr.. hAha.. s0 fUn..

tHis m0rNing i w0ke uP anD a mSg iN m0i hp.. fR0m m0i deAr.. shE sAid shE wAs sicK ytd nigHt.. hAD higH fEveR aNd v0mittinG.. 0mG.. wHy wAsnt mE thE 0nE siCk.. hAii.. lEt her sUffEr.. hAii.. sHE wEnt d0c.. tHen sHe sAy mAybe tmR n0t g0inG sCh0ol.. i w0nt lEt hER g0 lah..

st0p here.. i wiLL bLog l0ngeR nExt tiMe.. hAHa.. hAv fUn aLL of eU.. wiSh m0i deAr to gEt weLL s0oN.. anD i aM s0rry i cAnt bE witH euU n0w c0z eUu siCk.. miSs deAr..

wHat aM i g0nNa d0?

2006-01-06T00:44:00.000+08:00

i d0n n0e wHat t0 d0 n0w.. i wAn gEt a tEmp j0b.. gEt m0nEy.. but the fAct0ry i aSked 0Nly hAs m0rNing sHift.. whAt tHe heLL.. tHen i cAnt mEet m0i deAr tHat 0ftEn w0r.. bUt i hAve t0 gEt m0ney..vAlEntinEs dAy c0miNg.. i wAnNa mAke it a Mem0rabLe dAy f0r m0i deAr.. i hAvEn pLan wHat t0 d0.. i hAven gEt iNspirAti0n.. h0pe c0me up witH s0metHing sWeEt aNd r0mAntiC.. hAHa.. But i cAnt d0 it in cUrrEnt sTAte.. i d0n evEn hAve 5 cEnts iN m0i wAllet.. aiy0o.. i g0nNa g0 f0r tHat j0b iN thE fAct0ry.. i'm g0nNa w0rk hArd.. Wei lE w0 dEar.. wEi lE w0 mEn.. hahA.. iF w0rKinG i w0uld be w0rkiNg witH cHoke.. we b0tH wiLL be w0RkinG hArd t0getHer w0r.. hAha.. s0 i h0pe thAt bLo0dy aGent w0uld hUrry Up aNd tEll mE tHAt we g0t tHAt j0b.. if d0n gEt i d0n n0e wHere t0 w0rk le..

ouh.. i jUst rmB s0mEthIng.. i hAven hAnd iN tHE witHdRawaL f0rm t0 miLLeniA iNstitute.. if i d0n d0 it s0on ltR g0t pRob w0r.. hAha.. d0n cAre thEm.. i tAke m0i tiMe.. laZy w0r mUSt g0 tHere SEnd tHE lettEr.. hAHa.. uNlEsS sAt i aSk dEar pEi mE g0 thEre.. bUt d0n n0e sAt g0t 0pEn the sCh0ol.. if n0t waSte m0i time aNd m0i dEar's.. hAHa..

n0w i wAitiNg f0r m0i deAr c0me bAck fRoM cAmp lo.. haii.. i miSs hEr lo, aS uSuAl.. hAHa.. i cant wAit t0 sEe hEr aNd hUg hEr.. threE dAys nEveR hUg hEr.. nEvEr seE her.. fElt lyK f0revEr siA.. hAha.. h0pE sHe at tHeRe fiNe baH.. l0vE hEr l0tS..

..dAy 0ne..

2006-01-04T23:24:00.000+08:00

haii.. first day 0f her sec three camp.. she went off around 8plus am, i think.. she msg me at 5.57am.. she said she would miss me.. she told me not t0 cry when she ish away f0r the three days.. haii.. h0w t0 d0n cry sia?? when m0i dear ish away.. 1 am i called her and we talked.. i cried to her and asked her not t0 g0.. i really cant take the pain.. she say she had t0 go.. i d0n wan her t0 go.. haii.. ytd when i was with her f0r the last time before she went camp, i didn't get t0 hug her pr0perly w0r.. i damn regret.. haii.. i miss m0i dear.. i will wait f0r her t0 c0me back 0n friday..

tday i t0ok care 0f aliyah the whole day.. m0rning felt so different.. i think because m0i dear was away in malaysia.. aliyah today very guai.. didnt cry.. slept all morning.. but make her g0 sleep very hard nowadays.. hee.. then afterno0n fed her.. checked hp and f0und tw0 missed call.. don noe fr0m wh0.. c0uld be from millenia institute coz i didnt go t0day.. haha.. don care them lah.. i friday hand in the withdrawal form then can sum pian go blss wait f0r m0i dear c0me back.. haha..

at night ab0ut 8plus g0t a call from m0i friend.. said t0day g0t religious class.. then i hurriedly went down to jurong east lo.. i was t0ld religious class were changed t0 sat and sunday.. guess g0t wrong info.. haha.. 0n the way there met seng kiat.. he work at a factory.. data entry.. then i asked wether the factory g0t vacancy in production area.. so he helped me check lo.. now just wait for him t0 get back t0 me.. haha.. the job tiring but b0 pian i must w0rk s0 can buy m0i dear things 0n every m0nth anniversary.. haha..

when i ended class i went t0 a special place.. i went t0 the place near geraldine block.. i sat there alone.. most of the time m0i dear w0uldbe with me.. but not this time.. i cried silently when i thought 0f the times with m0i dear at that very place.. haii.. s0 many mem0ries.. we laughed, we talked and we even cried t0gether at there.. haha..

the love we share t0gether w0uld always be in m0i heart.. i miss m0i dear!

fiRst dAy iN sCh0oL..

2006-01-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

wAh lAu.. eArLy iN tHE m0rNinG wAit f0r tAxi witH m0i dAd.. wAitEd f0r s0 l0nG thEn cAme tHiS tAxi wiTh a sTupiD dRivEr.. i fLAg vEry cLEaRly bUt hE jUst dRivE tHr0ugH.. i shOwEd a littLe gEstUre0f "appReciAtioN" bY lEttIng my middLe fiNgEr d0 thE tHanKinG.. tHen g0t a tAxi aftEr 10 miNs.. whEn reAcHed thE millEniA iNstitUte, i wAs dAmn sh0cKed.. thE sCho0L sUpEr rUnd0wn.. i lo0kEd aRouNd and i fElt i wAs thE 0nLy bo0nlAyiAn.. hAii.. wEnt t0 aSsEmbLE in thE hypEr cRAmpEd hAll.. bUay tAhan.. tHinKinG 0f withdRawiNG liAo.. tHe ppL dAmn lAme anD i s0 l0nEly.. aLL aLoNe.. tHen wEnt t0 cLAsSr0om aftEr feW cRaptAlk.. tHe eX pRincipAl wAs my tUt0r 0r s0mEtHing.. tHen hE AskEd uS thE qN i bEeN dyinG t0 hEaR.. hE aSkEd "aNy 0f eUu g0t Any qUesti0n?".. i rAiSed aND sAid "if i waNt t0 witHdrAw aFteR t0dAy, how??" wAh.. hiS fAce sUper sHoCkeD.. hE gAve mE tHe witHdrawal f0rm witHoUt sAyinG aNythIng.. hAHa.. gUeSs i Am 0Ut 0f thAt sCho0L.. wAh fEeliNg dAmN syi0K!!

aFtEr diSmiSsAl i wEnt t0 bLsS fEtCh m0i dEar.. aftEr pRActicE she g0ng g0ng uSe m0i hp cAll hEr hp wHiCh wAs witH hEr mUm.. lUckiLy hEr mUm diDnt n0tice tHe cALL waS fRom m0i hp.. if n0t m0i dEaR diE liAo l0.. hEe.. shE tMr g0iNg SEc 3 cAmp At joh0r.. wAh lAu. i Sure miSs hEr lyk siAo.. whAt i g0iNg t0 do wHEn She g0 siA.. i h0pE sHe at tHEre wiLL tAkecAre w0r.. i w0rRy w0r.. haii.. wiLL misS m0i dEar.. fRi i 0utsiDe sCho0l wAit f0r hEr bAh..

witHoUt m0i DeAr, lifE wiLL bE s0 b0riNg.. bUt i kn0w tHEre aRe s0metimEs wE hAve no cHoiCE bUt t0 pArt f0r a m0mEnt.. bUt i kn0e 0ur hEartS wiLL bE t0gEther aS 0nE uNdEr whAtevEr ciRcuMstAnces.. l0vE m0i dEar aNd miSs hEr s0o0o mUch..

l0uSy mE..

2006-01-02T03:32:00.000+08:00

01/01/06 and i had a tiff with m0i dear.. haii.. how suay could i get.. all m0i fault lo... was not in a go0d mo0d.. haii.. don noe what the hell i was doing.. i kept hurting ppl who i hold dear everytime i not go0d mo0d.. geraldine m0i lovely sis i have hurt for countless times.. now m0i dear.. haii.. what the fuck..

t0 m0i dear.. weii.. what i did was accidental.. i don mean to say mean stuff and hurt euu.. haii.. euu kept saying it was ur fault when its so clear sut that its my fault.. haii.. i am at fault.. i ought to apologise.. sorry dear.. i love euu.. i will try to change..

t0day ish mel bubdae.. haha.. tmr sch reopens and i have to go to millenia institute for orientation.. don noe what time end.. i wan fetch m0i dear from scho0l on her first day in scho0l f0r year 20o6.. i g0nn a miss her when the new semester of scho0l coz i w0nt be in the same scho0l with her le.. haii.. ha0 xiang ta.. i also wont be with ger,qii,choke and shuinan when i have recess at MI.. haii.. i will b0red at there.. b0 pian s0 study lo at there.. science course leh.. a least i m0re interested to learn..

a new year, a new beginning, a new chapter in life

..[2006].. nEw bEgiNinG..

2006-01-01T02:13:00.000+08:00

nEw yEar lE lEh.. hAppy nEw yEar t0 aLL.. espEciAlly t0 hEr.. hEe..a nEw begiNniNg f0r eVeRyb0dY.. bUt c0UntdoWn tHis yEar n0 tHat happEnInG w0r..iN tHe m0rNinG hAd t0 wAkE up.. gEt ReAdy g0 my c0uSin wEdDing.. wAh lAu lEh..i dAmN tiRed w0r..stiLL mUst WeAr l0nG sLeevE sHiRt.. hAii.. tHeN my fAmiLy rEnt a Bus s0 thAt c0Uld piCk uP my aUnts And uNcles.. iN tHe bUs i mUst tAkecAre 0f my bAby c0uSin, aLiyAh[thE 0nE iN thE piCtUre].. sHe kEpt wAntiNG t0 pLAy.. bUt i vEry tIred LEh.. hAhA.. wEdDiNg t0oK pLAce In a rEstAurAnt at tAnjong pAgaR..wHen g0t thEre, My wHole fAmily sAt doWn And got reAdy t0 eAt.. bUt i rEgRet g0ing therE.. thE f0od n0 tAsty.. bUt b0 piAn l0 c0z t0o hUngRy le.. aLiyAh kEpt cRyinG.. sHe wAnt miLk.. hAii.. wHen wE aTe fiNisH, wE lEft f0r h0me.. 0n tHe wAy h0mE i sLept iN thE bUs..hAha... t0o tiRed i gUeSs..
wHen rEAchEd h0me i wAs dAmn b0rEd.. kEpt AskinG mE mUm let me g0 b0oN lAy f0r c0uNtd0wN.. finAlly sHe lEt AftEr i kEpt pEstErinG hEr.. hAha.. i mEt jAmeS, cH0ng hweE ANd my l0veLy siStA gErAldiNe.. thEy WeRe pErf0rMing mAh..aFtEr wE aTe nAsi lEmaK.. dAmN p0wEr!! "syi0K"
tHen We chAt l0.. tHen r0t nEar thE c0nceRt Area.. daMn n0t hAppEniNG.. gUess wE aBit tiRed thEn iNaCtiVe.. hAha..i reAcHed h0mE 10 mIn bEf0re thE nEw yEar.. i g0t 0nlIne aSAp t0 chAt witH m0i dEar wH0m i miSsEd s0o0o mUch.. hEe.. cAnt mEet bUt sHe wAs witH mE 0nLine wHen nEw yEar And thAt wAs g0od En0Ugh..
tHe yEar 2005 wAs a gReAt And mem0rAbLe yEAr..i Am sAtisfiEd And l0ok f0rwArd t0 a gReAt 2006!! hAppy nEw yeAr t0 aLL.. i miSs moi dEar..sCho0l g0iNg stArt aNd wE cAnt mEet thAt 0ftEn c0z i aLso g0t sch0oL w0r.. aRgH!! thAt iSh All f0r n0w.. i miSs moi deAr so0o0 mUcH!! i siAo lE..=]

..0uR l0ve..

2005-12-30T16:47:00.000+08:00

tHiS iSh My fiRst p0st.. i w0uLd liKe eUu t0 kn0w tHat tHis bLoG 0f miNe iSh spEciAlly dEdicatEd t0 k0h sHi hUi.. f0r eUu wh0 d0n kn0w hEr, sHe iSh tHe 0nE wHo i rEally l0vE..

i cAnt rMb h0w i aNd hEr g0t stArtEd..

it wAs dUriNg thE c0 pRactiCes 0f eArLy 2005 thAt jAmeS,gErAldiNe anD hUi Qi kEpt tEasiNg mE..i d0 owE it t0 tHem.. if n0t f0r tHem i w0Uldn't hAve g0t t0 kNow Such a w0ndErful girl.. aftEr sEverAl cHats witH hEr, i f0uNd tHat sHe wAs a DecEnt aNd cHeErfUl giRl.. at thAt tiMe i diDn't eVen th0ugHt i w0uLd likE hEr 0nE bit.. gUeSs my bRaiN wAsn't w0rKing t0o wEll.. mY hEaRt diD anD i stArtEd likiNg hEr.. s0 uNeXpEctEd.. but tHat's liFe..

i c0uLdn't rMb wHen i pLuckEd Up my c0urAge to c0nfeSs my feElingS t0 hEr..i 0nly rMb thAt sHe wAs in heR fAthEr's cAr.. i kn0w tHat i told hEr thE tRuth And it wAs fRom tHe b0ttoM 0f mY hEart.. hEe.. reAlly..after that wE g0t cLosEr.. stArtEd hAnging 0ut witH eAch 0thEr.. bUllied EaCh 0thEr.. hEe.. i rMb th0sE timEs..

0uR bEgiNninG wAs n0t tHat sm0otH tHoUgh.. thEre weRe tiMes wHen i fElt tHat i wAsn't thE rigHt gUy f0r her.. i fElt i wAsn't w0rtH hEr love.. i t0lD hEr h0w i fElt and evEn t0ld 0tHers.. sHe t0ld mE thAt sHe wAs wiLLinG t0 sTay by My siDe tiLL wHatevEr enD.. i wAs hAppy t0 hEaR tHat.. i t0lD mySelf tHAt i hAd t0 givE mysElf a ChAnce.. s0 i diD.. hEe..

tHe piCtUre wAs tAken dUring thE c0 bBq.. i b0tHerEd a fEw 0f m0i giRls t0 pEi mE bUy cAke at jP.. hAha.. i bouGht a Choc0lAte cAke fr0m pRimA dEli.. at fiRst i wAntEd t0 bUy a hEaRt cAke fRoM aNdErsEn's iCE cReAm bUt tHe lAst onE wAs AlreAdy bouGht.. s0 sAd w0r tHat tiMe.. tHen weNt t0 fAm0uS am0s to bUy a hEart c0okiE cAke.. bUt hAd t0 pReodEr a dAy iN adVancE.. m0re sAd w0r mE.. tHats wHen i dEcidE t0 bUy thE cHoco cAke.. hAha.. tHEn b0uGht m&m cHoc0lAte And moi giRlS hElpEd mE by d0ing a gReAt fAvour to fOrm A hEart shApe at tHe cEntEr of tHe cAke.. i bougHt al0t cAndLes to f0rM the i And U.. wHen it wAs aLL sEt, i broUgHt hEr to tHe nEtbAll coUrt.. tHere, sHE cloSed heR eyEs aS i t0ld hEr t0..

i lit thE cAndLes wHile sHE cl0sED her eyES.. i bUrnt my hAnd aBit As thE ligHter Was dAmn h0t.. hAha.. i mAnAge t0 ligHt up All thE cAndLes ExcEpt f0r onE.. its s0 obviouS riGht?? shE wAs sHockEd.. i rEaSsUred her by tellinG hEr tHat i am SeriouS Ab0ut her.. hEe.. it wAs 0ne of tHe hAppiest dAy 0f my life.. tHaNks t0 tH0se wH0 hElpEd mE..

bUt tHe hAppiEst dAy hAd t0 be thE dAy wHen i g0t d0wN on my knEeS on thE stRokE 0f miDnigHt oN 25/11/05.. i kNelt d0wN t0 "pRop0sE" t0 eUu dUriNg tHe SeconD niGht 0f c0 cAmp at thE cO r0oM.. heE.. i b0uGht tHe hEart co0kie cAke fRom fAmous Amos.. iT wAs A w0ndErfUl niGht.. eUu repliEd sAyiNg yEs.. it WaS mUsic t0 my EArs.. rEally..i love hEr s0 mUcH And tHe wHolE w0rld kn0ws.. hEe..

bUt tHat wAs 0nLy tHe "pr0posAl".. tHiNgs got "officIAl" at 11/12/05.. i cHose tHe dAte aS it iN bEtweeN ouR birthdAys.. a weeK afteR miNE And A WeEk bEfore hErs.. hEhe.. mA fAn hor bUt i hAd t0 cHo0se An aUspiCiouS dAte w0r.. hAha.. likE mArriAge lo.. hMm.. tHiNk i St0p hEre bAh.. jUst wAn t0 lEt sHi hUi kNow if She iS rEAdiNg tHis thAt i lovE hEr no mAtteR wHAt.. hEr hAppinEss iSh aLso miNE.. hEe.. loVe hEr S0 mUch..

pS:tH0se rEadIng Euu miGht WaN giVe Me uR bLessIngs by tAggiNg my tAg b0Ard.. =]